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Ni Hao [Nov. 2nd, 2009|10:50 pm]

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I am exhausted, came back not long ago from training.
Really just feel like crawling into my bed with my beloved Sophie Kinsella book which i cant wait to read, hahaha.
BUT, i was considering media fast in 3 days, i should update while i can right right right.

So.
I had a highly eventful weekend, not academically, but family-ly and friends wise. My brother's birthday was a day before mine, (and i havent gotten around to make his card!!), but yeah they surprised him on friday night, so my night didnt turn out as badly as i thought it was;
and we played till about 2 plus when i could not take it any longer and just crashed.
Joanne, Reen, Gordon, Austin, Nicsow right? We waited till about 1 plus for him to come home! I was so so tired.
But yeah i think it was pretty worth it, he claimed to be surprised. Gordon was so funny, he totally said 'hello" to my brother instead of scaring him, hahaha.
But yeah we played a bit of Wii, hahaha i own gordon!

So saturday, we had a family lunch, the food was surprisingly good! As in not that my mom aint a fantabulous cook, but i was never one for steamboats. Then we went for edge, came home to accompany Brian. and he's very good at Wii! tsk, i feel so indignant.
Then some of them came over to sort of surprise me at 11-ish, hahaha, and it was very sweet of them la. Thank you, Reen, Joanne, Joheng, gladys, kim, Gordon, Samuel, thats it right?I hope i didnt miss out any. But yeah we played Wii again, created kim and joanne, joheng's Mii character is a joke hahaha.
I had a great time really, thanks guys.

Sunday went swensens with Momma and Brain, food was not bad, came back to crash, then finally started on my beloved cheena.
Speaking of which, today's chinese was pretty disappointing, but aiya.
After that at about 1245, we (S, robyn, Joseph) made a spontaneous decision to catch a movie! Hahahaha so we run like idiots to get a cab, and went late for Sister's keeper, which was very good, sobfest as expected, and it was a great reality check la.
Then S and I were having great plans for Uni, after Uni, (hahahha), so exciting, I really really hope our plans will materialize, you have no idea how much i thank God for you, and your amazingness and how i'm always soooo happy around you, its crazy.
we ate the re ben chun too, we ate like super alot, ahhahaa.

Then then then, we had to come back :( for glorious training, super tiring, besides it was raining, so we trained in the sunken gallery, which i think is worssssee. Rah,
Okay sorry for my very boring update, lack of creative juice now, wan an.

Thank you eve for your amazing gift and note, and post, i love your words, your sincerity, your personality, character, you. You're truly one of a kind, and i know i'll never meet someone quite like you. Thanks for blessing everyone who passes you by on life's journey, and i know you're placed strategically for a reason. You've taught me so much, more than you can ever imagine, and simply loving your life is a testimony to me of god's goodness and masterpiece. You're so gorgeous, inside out, its unbelievable.
I'm so undeserving as your friend, you have no idea.
<3 you're so worth it.

Jacinth, :)
thank you for your scrap book, i love it forever its the nicest gift i've ever received. I dont know how to sum up how grateful i am for having you in my life. I love your crazy weird mind, and schools of thought, and how you're so bold and daring to be yourself, you're cool la k. Cant believe we've come this far, and i know we're built to last. My life's been crazy with you around, but i wouldnt want it any other way.
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Welcome to my official Pity Party. [Oct. 30th, 2009|11:02 pm]
&^&$#*&%#(*$(*&&*
Welcome to my Official Pity Party(OPP) 

Disclaimer: This is a rant. Don't judge me. And don't read it unless you're bored, you have nothing better to do, or you have had a bad day too.

MY RANT )


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My mother's so cute. I dont think she knows how to put saddies or angry emoticons. So there are only smileys in her messages, it makes it alot less intimidating. Like she always goes:
Why are you not back yet? :) so late:), come back now:).
 

And this was how our sms conversation looked like today, I'm totally serious and i didnt make it up, cross my heart.
Mom: It is raining. Waiting for bus 88 with 5 bags from NTUC. The bus braked. :) oh:) my eggs broke already. Wish me luck in bringing the groceries back. :) 
Hahaha, she's super funny. I totally broke out laughing even though i was so so pissed,
So i replied:
I just missed 74:( will be late :(:(:( why you dont take taxi? So poor thing. Good luck.
M: taxi queue very long, :) 
ME: Mom do you know how to put this: :( ?


Nil reply.
and then after i told her my predicament, she replied:

You more poor thing than me.

I wanted to cry.



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An official failure. [Oct. 29th, 2009|06:24 pm]
I am officially a failure.
I ended school at a glorious 1230 today, so i was contemplating between a happy afternoon, and a not so happy afternoon.
Was thinking of whether i should go to town with Cinth maybe and catch Sister's Keepers and have a sob fest after everyone claims its a Must Watch!(!!!!!) or should i go home and studiously mug my chinese.
Was thinking if i went to town, reach at 130, eat till 230, catch the 315 show, reach home at 6, good idea right?
Initially decided on the former, but Jacinth couldnt make it cause she watched it before :(, and had stuff to do, and since i only have one friend right, so i was forced to go home.
Pearlyn and I wanted to go starbucks to save Yuhan with her Pw madness also, but our plan failed hahaha.
So i went home and wanted to complete oh so much work.

So you would think by now- 703pm,
i would have already completed oh so much work.
Na-daa.

I FELL ASLEEEP ARGH FOR 3 AND A HALF HOURS.
i feel so wasted. hahahha, on the flip side i'm very very rested,
on the another flip side( haha), i havent done anything, argh.
So, i didn't get a happy afternoon, or a not so happy afternoon, it was a emotionless afternoon,
after all i was sleeping.

So i was in the toilet bathing when my mother came home,
and I yelled: Mom i just woke up after three hours arghhhhh.
And she replied: Huh? you just worked out for three hours?! Wow.

Yeah right Mom.
She has the weirdest analogies did i tell you?
Mom: Eh Chelle can you come and pluck out your charger? Its like leaving your backside behind. Like going to Pangsei already then wait for people to come and clean your backside.

Hahahaha, she's so funny.
Now, you get why i'm so irrelevant.

Speaking of PW, today's the glorious day when everyone's frantically trying to compile their WR,
and everyone under Baldie, think SC5, are panicking cause he's such a useless ST,
they're so poor thing la, like Serene, who only had half an hour of sleep poor thing.

and i felt so seriously grateful for Rachel, the most awesome leader everrrr, and
Mr Goh, whose 497287485974987 comments seriously would make you go bonkers, but at least he makes an effort  right right.
And thank God we didnt even have to rush today, and all three of us coolly sashayed out of school at 110 sharp. :) 

Okay, the official failure shall NOW go and start on her glorious chinese,
Cant wait for Jiu Dian when i can catch my Jiu Dian Si, and eat my chocolate ice cream!
So much for working out for three hours.

P/s: Wahlau, Daming stole my idea and have already bought a wallet for Tuck, from London.
Thanks la, Ownage la. Win la.
And he didn't buy anything for me. :(
Aiya, considering he kind of? bought this lap top for me, or his girlfriend, and their one right,
so i guessssss its okay.
Anyways, Esther if you're reading this,
I havent seen you in 782789747547 years! When you coming over to entertain your boyf's lil' sister and let us both get owned my invincible brother?

P/P/s: We have a friendly match against UWC tomorrow, hahahaha.
I accidentally blurted our yesterday, that we'll be a joke in front of everyone, hahah not funny.
Wish me luck?

P/P/P/s: and then we'll have training after, Hard core much.
Sian diao Spiderrrrrrrr.



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(no subject) [Oct. 25th, 2009|07:26 pm]
whoa, i just realized that a capsule of tamiflu costs $6.50,
and i'm finishing a cost of 10.
Thats 65 bucks excluding cough, flu, and 3 other fever medicines, plus consult fees.
Feel so heartache for mama's wallet.
I can watch a movie for every capsule of tamiflu!
wth.

And i bet i dont even have swine flu.
Stupid, rip off doctor.
Argh,

I felt so lonely these few days at home.
Feels like a million years since i last stayed home for an entire weekend,
three days no joke.
I'm pretty sure i havent done it since i was 12.
I tried to play Wii alone yesterday, haha
was so bored, and i kept getting owned by the stupid computer,
so i gave up.
Wish Carmen was her,
she'll confirm lose to me, or give up half way hahaha.
Did i mention that her MIi character is the prettiest? :)
i created it.
Mine looks like a red indian. Jacinth's looks like.. hahaha.

Read and reread "Remember me? " by Sophie Kinsella,
love her writing style, her simplicity, her frankness, her humor.
She feels like a friend.

Sad case i know, sick until must befriend  a book. hahaha.
Still contemplating whether i should go for training tomorrow,
knowing myself, i'll probably force myself to go.

I'm so incoherent, sorry i know.
Really need God's complete healing and strength to get through this week, to the nexxxxt.
:)
missed service. Felt weird staying home on a Sunday too.
1000, okay worship starts, 1015, late comers strolling in, 1030 sermon starts,
1140, nicsow/johnson decides to wake up, 115, i have my pineapple fried rice, then maybe we'll travel to tampanies to NUA.
I still dont feel like completely well, though i'm better thank God,
but i dont feel like myself yet.

But thank you Reen, for your very encouraging message,
for wanting to bring PFR to me :) the thought counts okay.
And thank you Serene, for letting me call you just to hear your amazing voice, you're great.
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Tamiflu. [Oct. 24th, 2009|01:32 pm]
This is getting to be beyond a joke.
I've never been this sick before.
And yeah if you havent heard by now, i'm suspected of having Swine Flu.

Swine Flu. Its supposed to be something i read about in the papers, something i hear teachers nagging about,
something related to the H1N1 jokes passing around.
I'm not supposed to be suspected to have it.
Btw, i'm already on Tamiflu.

I slept from 4 pm yesterday to 11 today. That makes 19 hours.
Wow.
I hate eating the medicine.
I'm on tamiflu, 3 other fever medicine, cough, and flu.
I think i'm eating more medicine than actual food. I havent touched any rice since 3 days ago.
I had better lose 5 kg from this man, if not its so not worth it.
Anyways, i missed volleyball first training, going to so lag behind.

This could not have come at a worse timing, missed care &share today, after all the inviting and trouble.
Just found out that Ris Low is from my church, region 9/10, wow.
Small World huh.
Anyways i feel so scared for PW and Chinese, how how how.
Prelims on Monday my goodness, dont even know whether i would be well enough to attend school even.
God please please make me well, i really cannot afford to be sick now.

Btw, got back promo results also, didnt do too badly, didnt fail anything,
but didn't do well either, not a single A, with 2 S-es.
Disappointed with econs, VERY disappointed with History.
sigh.

Oh yes, FUN-O-RAMA XX.
Can you all please please buy from me, i hate to go around asking people to buy, please please.
Its 10 per ticket, next year 27 march.
My class would be doing a haunted house, maybe you'll see me in a ghost costume.
PLEASE.

thanks.
p/s:
The doctor said one of the side effects of tamiflu might be that i will hallucinate, and have suicidal tendencies. So he told my mom to lock the grills up.
Wow.
You guys better pray hard you'll have the chance to be irritated by me again.


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Jai ho. [Oct. 22nd, 2009|07:38 pm]
Fever, cough, flu, sick. :( 
I love how my mom takes care of me when i'm sick.
She'll buy floss and make me porridge, but she'll never pity me no matter how hard i try to look pitiful.
Hahaha, she knows me so well, love much.
I really hope my future husband will treat me like that too, though of course he won't see through my pitiful fasade.

Argh this is really not a good time to fall sick,
Op, chinese, chinese, chinese, volley starts tomorrow, care& share.
Commitment, responsibility, duty.

I need to get well.
Eating medicine was a torture just now, Mom fed me like i was six,
felt like vomiting like how i always do since six.
Hate you Mr Medicine.

Wish i was a child again,
remember how in the past when i was sick,
i dont have to worry about anything.
I'll just sleep and sleep and look pitiful.

Now i cant.
Gna wake up to memorize PW, and to slog through Chinese, PW, Chinese, Pw Chinese.
The medicine's making me drowsy.

Hello, i miss you.
Angel from my nightmare.





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(no subject) [Oct. 19th, 2009|11:30 pm]
But everybody's changing and I don't feel the same.
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Boom Boom Pow. [Oct. 19th, 2009|12:22 am]
JACINTH'S AT MY HOUSE NOWWWWWW, :) PLAYING WII, EATING JUNK, ENTERTAINING MY COUS. :)


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BANG WO! [Oct. 17th, 2009|11:13 pm]
SOME ONE PLEASE HELP ME. :( 

I desperately need to use the Microsoft Office (2007) , and the one currently now requires me to enter the PRODUCTION KEY, which i have NO CLUE how to obtain. I'm very very frustrated and i need to use it baddddly.
so how? Should i get the original one? Or do any of you out there by any chance have a pirated CD or something? I reaally need it bad, and my brothers are so annoyingly apathetic to my situation. 
Argh.

Thanks.

p/s: THE MILO VAN CAME YESTERDAY <3 <3
 
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Seek to bless, and not to impress. [Oct. 15th, 2009|07:56 pm]
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Today was a long, hard day. 
But i really gained a lot too.

Rushed like dog to come to school early, cause we were supposed to meet Ma tang at 715, she was no where to be seen. Furthermore, Serene and I were displaced to sit with the J2s in front because we were supposed to announce about the YOG right, but to our amazement, we didn't even get to announce till 10, so we were just awkwardly sitting with the rah rah cheering J2s all the way.
We were ridiculously nervous okay, but it was okay in the end, stammered a little to the end, but yeah whatever.
 
I really enjoyed the Baccalaurete Service alot, the speeches and songs were all so meaningful, and i really learnt a lot from some of their speeches, especially Mr Patrick Sum, i really like him, his spirit of humility and willingness to learn.
And so, we'll never see the J2s as a batch again, as in technically, its quite sad.
I'll miss them, i'll miss you mathieu!
(oh yeah there's still church :/, kidding. )

So after, we had AC games, the atmosphere wasnt as great as i expected really, and even though it was a little cui, but i could tell the councillors really invested a lot of time and effort, so cheers to you Tabs, Bev, Chris, pris and all. The Milo Van didn't come :( but this Revive and mountain dew van came! whoohoo. hahaha.
AH lost cball right from the first round, so immediate knockout haha sad case.

Jolynn and I competed in the bridge competition. We played till the finals and losttt. Yeah, i'm not going to rant about why, and how i think its unfair whats not, cause i'm glad me and Jolynn played the way we did, and i'm happy and proud of us that we played clean and well. She was great really, awesome sportsmanship (or hotwoman-smanship), if that makes sense, hahaha. But i'll willingly give up the trophy to hear the encouragement from some friends, ( especially you Pearl), to have bonded with Jo, and to have met some awfully decent councillors, they were so nice and encouraging i loved them. And i think they did a great job trying their best to ensure the game was fair. It wasn't their fault the guys had an attitude problem. Learnt a lot about fair play today, and how even though you might not get caught, there's really no point doing so, and its just cowardice if you have to resort to it, to prove a point about your abilities.

Was supposed to watch The Ugly Truth with Serene today, but we made a wise decision, and decided to sacrifice it for greater things. Very proud of her and myself, cause i really desperately wanted to watch it actually.

P/s: Snacking on my brother's awesome pocky from japan now. I love pocky to the max and their 437205749857328957 innovative flavors. He's so annoying, giving me the one that isnt so nice. :( (Actually i still really like it, but that's not the point. ) 
P/P/s: i feel like playing Wii.


 

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Something beautiful will come your way, [Oct. 15th, 2009|01:27 am]
These three are definitely three of my favorite people in the world.
These two days have been spent in the loveliest possible way, and if i could redo it; it would be exactly the same.

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Yesterday, i just chilled out with Jacinth in town, travelled here and there, feeling finally relaxed, deliberating over my addidas bag, ( which i bought, whoo! ), and it was so funny. My first noobish time paying with my nets card. OKAY i know, super loser, lousyy. and everything, but i was so scared it wouldnt be approved, like my pin and everything. But whoa, it was fast and efficient, and i felt like i was getting a free bag! ha ha. And we walked for so long, i was so tired, through cine, taka, wisma, ion, wisma again, taka again, and back to cine to get my bag ( ha ha ha ).
Jacinth got earrings- related to liverpool. Wth right, earrings also?! seriously, hardcore fan. We're going to the beach/ swimming for an awesome relaxing picnic or just chillout this sat! so excitingsxzsxzsx.
I'm going to get a lovely tann. :)
I love company with her, so easy and real, and there. Love how our friendship is built on quality time, and how we can do everything together, and of course, built on God; definitely.
On a slightly negative note though, I did not really like 500 days of summer, neither did she. Yeah, i know everyone's raving over it, and it supposedly has an awesome plot. But i really didn't like it, plot especially. Hated the ending. Sorry. I'm hard to please yes.

If you havent watched you might not want to read this.
( you have been warned. ) :

Did anyone notice how ironic it was that Autumn is so "summer-ish", while summer is so "autumn-ish"? If you get what i mean. Like Autumn is so sunshine, and hot, and bubbly, while Summer is so like cold, and eccentric, and dark, and mysterious?
haha, maybee we were just thinking too much, i guess.

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In the afternoon, i met up with Dory for awhile, its been quite some time since we last spoke, and yeah it was very good, very refreshing and nice to catch up. We toured town again, seriously Singapore is closing in on us man, no where to go. :(

But well, the company made up for it. Got lost so many times in town with both of our lack of amazing directions, it was quite bad actually. Walked back and forth through wheelock and Ion, and Ion and Ion, and taka and Ion, and Wisma, and Ion Ion Ion. I was so annoyed, Ion is EVERYWHERE. You have to practically go past it EVERYTIME to get anywhere! So finally, we headed to Shaw's top level and chilled out. Wanted to catch a movie, but the showtimes were off, so just talked. About boys, her awesome lovelife, my lack of one, school, studies, friends, ambitions, and everything.
She's really sweet, and reminded me of our good ol'orientation days.
She's a gem la really.
Makes me feel really loved and fuzzy wuzzy. :)

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We headed down to Clarke Quay after, and Dory was having her class outing there, while i was going to been Super Serene! ( Attempt at alliteration! ) She was so funny. Called me and rambled on and on, screaming in my ear, and for a moment, just one, i thought she was actually so excited to meet me. Na-daa. She was so red, ha ha ha. So cute la. you know i know you know what! Ha-ha not funny.
So yeah we had to script our Volley announcement for tomorrow, and we took quite long, am quite nervous actually. Hope i dont stutter or fall, or make a fool of myself.
Didnt have a camera today, cause like its at the bottom of the pond right, and its closed, rah.
Anyways, Ad3 was there, all dressed up, and they were quite cool, went to play the Ultimate bungee thingy at the riverside, quite brave, i'll never dare seriously. Marc's birthday too.

SO, we bought subway and Burger king, and sat back the riverside to talk, so romantic i loved it. Love how we never run out of conversations, never. No awkward silences or gaps to fill up. So we were chatting for like 3 hours? On life, love, fun, Junior college life, how reality never fits expectations, how whether Uni would be what we expect, hostel life, friends, friendship, family, guys, our love for caucasians, church, pastors, people, people, and everything under the sun seriously.
Made plans to be air stewardesses together, to fly around or happy as larry; to go on double dates, and have double lattes, (ha ha ), so exciting.
Walked around and oogled at all the hot AngMos, SPGs TTM. Hahahaha, it was quuuite awesome, hard to put the memory down into words, there's no need to anyways.
All these just to say,
She's got to be one of my most favorite person in the world.
 

I know these are the kind of friendships i'd look back at, and thank God for. Ten years down the road, people i'm pretty sure i'll still keep in contact with. The people at my VIP table at my wedding. :) 
Back to routine tomorrow, or not so routine-ish routine. Chinese, pw, bleaaah. Baccalaurete Service tomorrow too. AC Games, watching THE UGLY TRUTH with SERENE, :) SO EXCITINGSXSXS.
i miss routine with pearl though. She just reminded me that i'll be seeing her in six hours, what a scary thought. hahahaha.
Brave girl watched horror today. :O
i miss my camera. :( bahhh.

P/s: missed studying with Joanne and Reen like last week. Joanne was so cute. 
P/s: i still have your star reen!
P/s: I dont wna do niancibenzi, nianci 9 and 10, :( Pearl, Shaun, Serene you feeel me?)

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Anyways, i thought the lyrics to this song is so meaningful. I really like Robbie Williams, just so you know. I remember the first time Eve played it to me. :) Eve, this one's for you.

SomethingBeautiful

You can't manufacture a miracle
The silence was pitiful-that day
And love is getting too cynical
Passion's just physical-these days
You analyse everyone you meet
But get no sign - loving kind
Every night you admit defeat
And cry yourself blind

If you can't wake up in the morning
'Cause your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired or lonely

Something beautiful will come your way






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When my promos are over, [Oct. 12th, 2009|11:29 pm]
When it's over
That's the time I fall in love again
And when it's over
That's the time you're in my heart again
And when you go go go go
I know
And it never ends
It never ends
-When its over/ Sugarrays.

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Sweet sweet liberation.
I should feel happy.
But weirdly i dont.
I was expecting to feel a strange kind of high, or excitement, but i just dont.
And i can't help but wonder why.
Is there something wrong with me, no life geek.
hahahah,

Anyways, i had history and chinese paper today.
History was very straight forward, we did all the questions before in tutorials, almost exactly the same; i felt like i was merely regurgitating my facts out, honestly felt bored; but everyone was very satisfied after the paper, leaving the venue with bright smiles on their faces. Jolynn was super pissed cause she stayed up till 4am to mug, when all she had to do was reread her old tutorials.
But call Eve crazy, she said she would have preferred something a little more challenging, and initially i thought she was mad too, but i kind of agree now. I mean, if the questions are so direct, the only way of judging and comparing is how well you are at memorizing, which i guess in a sense is a kind of intelligence too? :/
I'm not very convinced. But either way, as Tabs said, it was the best history paper yet, so i'm not going to complain. (much.) 
I'm so hard to satisfy right! Sorry Sorry. :(

Anyways, today's break was the most unproductive, yet the loveliest yet. The three hours zoomed passed with Eve, Bev, Shu,  and Nat. I thoroughly enjoyed myself and did not complete a sentence of chinese revision that i was supposed to, but heck it. Rules are for amateurs.
If i could do it again, i would have done the break in the exact same manner.
P/s: Eve i miss your company.
P/P/s: Bev you'll never see this but you're awesome and too cool for words. :)

Anyways, i suddenly really can't wait for Saturday's edge, and after playground chillout. Its something so natural, its already a part of our routine and everything, yet it still feels refreshing and uplifting every time, the fellowship, the simple, comfortable company, the feeling of family. Last saturday, silly us were singing national day songs at the top of our voices, hahaha it was so fun and silly i loved it. :) 
Then we moved on to old school boybands, westlife; BSB; NSync, M2M, A1...I love them la. Haha, super old school and cool.
Speaking of that, Jacinth and I are catching a movie tomorrow, and shopping! So exciting. hahaha, she waking up at some unearthly hour to fast breakfast, super cute.

Anyways i wanted to add something about the chinese paper. Let me tell you a secret. I actually secretly, enjoy, okayokay maybe not enjoy, hmmm; dont mind, doing chinese paper 2s. Not cause i'm some sicko who likes to pen down my inferences in my mother tongue, (whose characters look like little aliens seriously); but because there will always be a particular passage that is very very touching and which i love.

I remember that i was tearing for my Olevel paper, and for a not very emotional person, i think its quite a feat especially when your mentality is probably just to finish the paper and be done with it. I would like to think that the chinese teachers are trying to impart some sort of values or principles to us, and in my mind i would always envision, some motherly chinese figure. hahaha.
Anyways, the passage today really touched me.
I shall TRY to translate it, from memory.

The First Friday of each month.
      Basically, the story was about how the persona's mother works as a cleaning auntie on the graveyard shift, and how the company permits them to bring their children on the first friday of every month. The persona never once went as he was too lazy, and could not imagine himself forgoing a night of sleep to clean the office with his mom.
     However, his brother on the other hand always enjoyed going religiously and even would explain to him how he enjoyed helping his mother and mixing with the other kids there.
     So once the persona asked the brother after they have both grown up why did he make such an effort to accompany his mother every month without fail, and he was stunned by the answer.
     The brother said that he went because he knew how hard his mother works, and he wished she did not have to do the job. Thus he viewed the chance every month as a golden opportunity to be able to spend time with his mother.
     As time passed, the little brother eventually gained a reputable, and pretty high position in the same company his mother once worked at, and his first day of work, he looked suave and promising in his shiny suit.
     His mother kissed him on the cheek and gave him her blessings.
     Walking towards the carpark, he suddenly turned around and sprinted back to the house and embraced his mother, weeping endlessly. The mother hugged him even closer to herself, and muttered: "the son of the cleaning lady has finally grown up."
     At this sight, the elder brother was overwhelmed with emotions and filled with regret. He wished he had spent that little time with his mother every month and had cherished the opportunity he had.

I know it doesn't seem like a very touching story now, but the way it was phrased and everything, i was just really moved.
i cant believe i just translated everything hhahahaha.

Ahhh, really tired now,
J tomorrow,
D and S weds,
Volly thursday.

Night, sleeptight.
Dont let the bed bugs bite.


 

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Just keep runnng, just keep running, just keep running running running. [Oct. 11th, 2009|09:14 pm]
NIKE FLIGHT SPORTS EARPHONES
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I really want this! :(
To motivate me to run, hahaha.

i MIGHT beg my mom to get it. :)

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Cause you can't understand; [Oct. 8th, 2009|11:25 pm]
[Current Mood | pessimistic]

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Writing here feels like meeting a long lost friend.
Its awkward, slightly familiar, but mainly I just do not know where to start.

Well anyways, my sudden, anticlimatic resurrection was a result of my brilliant new laptop, my first ever Vaio, after the demise of my sad desktop, which i have to say did not serve me well at all. (Perhaps because I am a techno idiot but that is absolutely not the point.) And yes, because my old computer was super substandard and lousy i did not really desire to use it that much.
But.
I do feel very very majorly cyberly dead.

I guess there is a deeper meaning for me not being active online, the lack of a good device being merely a secondary excuse.
I dont know.
I guess reading blogs just honestly, leave me feeling very tired, and weary and perhaps inadequate. I mean, you know like R said, it only reflects the side people want others to judge them by, and i agree; in a lot of sense its like publicity, and it can act as mass gossip or mass salvation is a sense. But i think it takes a high level of discipline to control what you write very well.
I mean everything we say would have an impact on others you know, and i think this ability to influence is just a bit hmm iffy.
I guess we might not have the intention or the motive to evoke some deep feelings amongst people, but there is always an small reason for us writing the things we do isn't there. Even subconsciously, we are looking for a desired ideal response that we want, a way for people to view us.
I guess its ironic that I am writing it here. Hmm. But yes to be fair, i do still read; cause i think some are really commendable, and noteworthy. I'm just saying in generaal, i just dont like the idea.
well you might disagree.

Well anyways, something Silas told me a long time ago always stuck with me, and yes i know many of you have probably heard me repeating it many many times. He said that reading blogs allow you to know who they are on a public level, and yeah it does not make you any closer to the person, maybe the temporal feeling that you're a part of their lives. I guess its very very true. I mean some west indies person who has internet access can know as much about this person he has never met, namely your friend; as you, and thus; what level of friendship is there?
I mean isn't it so much more meaningful if the person can relate to you personally how his or her day went?
I mean there's no purpose in knowing what you know if the person does not intend for you to, or is not even bothered whether you do so.

Perhaps I am trying to justify my laziness in reading blogs.
Perhaps i just like the art of writing solely for someone.
Perhaps I am just very (and yeah i am very) anti-technology.

I do not know.

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RANT:

What an aimless rant, and I am so contradictory but rahh. Promos ending on Mon. I feel like i cant wait for it to end, but at the same time i know that the after-high isnt going to last very long.
And a very very annoying part of my brain keeps reminding me the Glorious Pw and the Fantabulous Chinese that awaits me.
I mean Chinese As are three weeks from now. Thats not very far away. :(
Well, i'll just conquer the history mountain on Monday first alright.
One step at a time chelle.
( feels like and endless cycle when will this end. )

I am dreading dreading dreading Training after promos, but i do need it to keep fit.
But eee, the muscular thighs are super grosss. ( Do i hear a chorus of agreement here S?).

You know i really hate it how during promos you inevitably drift away from your friends? I get really frustrated by it, and i dont want it to be this way. I know its not their fault, and i cant do anything about it. Promos IS important, i mean, and its not anybody's fault, i just dont like it this way.
But i really cant stand it when exams become the excuse for everything seriously. Its like seasonal change. Adapt to it, and deal with it. Not revolve around it. Its like migrating to different countries, to remain in the summer. Just buy some winter clothes man. Or alternatively, you can migrate to Singapore. Goodness, what am i talking about. Rawr.

xxxxxx
P/s: Missing you S, havent spoken to you for a lifetime.
Where'd you go. i miss you so..


P/P/s: Studying with J & R tomorrrowww, how excitingxs. Jacinth has a learning journal tomorrow, will hog her for saturday, history tomorrow. The day after tomorrow, and the day day after tomorrow.

P/P/P/s: Liberation day on tuesday. (funnily i dont feel very excited for it. Something's terribly wrong with me. )

P/P/P/P/s: Net attendance is highly demoralizing. :( Thanks to F, and Y though; you guys are great. :)

Promos isnt going well either.
but.
God will make a way, when there seems to be no way, he works in ways we cannot see,
he will make a way for me. :)


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Desperate for your touch/ [Aug. 9th, 2009|08:59 am]

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I’ve waited all my life to be here face to face.
I never knew that I could feel this kind of grace.
The way You show me that Your love has washed me clean,
Could never be erased; it lives inside of me.

Take me to that secret place,
Where I can only see Your Face,
And nothing else will ever feel this way.
You take away my guilty stains,
The things I’ve done that I can’t change,
It’s only by the Power of Your name.

I stand here in this place,
See the Glory on Your Face,
Taken by the wonder of Your name.
I’m desperate for Your touch,
Never needed it so much,
Cause all I want is You.

When all the things around me have fallen to the ground
I’m always thankful for the love in You I’ve found.

I am sick. Was sick right from the morning, went to the Drive through to study with Jacinth, was sneezing the entire day. Thanks a lot nose, you sure made my morning miserable. Anyways, yes the whole point was that i was feeling sickly and really didnt feel like going Edge. I even told J that i'm confirm not going already. But lo and behold, I went in the end, perhaps even for a little peace of mind.

Honestly, God is so good la huh. The message was just so apt, it couldnt have been better tailor made for me. The moment i saw the title, i just knew, bang! This is for me. Anyways, yeah the message was on seeking God, and how its so easy to fall into routine and think Christianity is passive and always waiting for God to come find you, to seek you out. Christianity is supposed to be aggressive, active, for God said he will draw near to those who seek him. We need to want to know him more, to engage in his word, and his heart.
To all the Christians out there, you know if you have been seeking him passionately, daily, i know i have not to be frank. Its no wonder i feel dry, cold, empty. When you take your first step to him, he will take the rest of the ninety nine. When i went down to the alter call, i was just so renewed, and i really needed it so, so badly. His timely is truly divine. So hard to fathom.

I actually shuddered to think that i might have missed all these, had i chose not to go. Ah, the powers of a good decision. Anyways, i am glad i got through this week. Its been tiring as usual and mundane, but i think what was the hardest, was probably me trying to do it on my own. You know, there's so many things we strive to achieve, to prove in our lifetime. But i dont think anyone really knows to whom are we doing this for? We think we're trying to prove that we're adequate, that we're good enough for the world, for our friends, for our parents. But truly, so many times, we're just doing it to meet our own expectations, to feel good about ourselves for truly meeting the benchmark, but we do not realize that the yardstick always shifts, people change, so do their mindsets, and perhaps the reputation that we take a lifetime to build up might be shattered in a moment, and honestly, i dont think people; other than our few close friends, are really that fazed by our whole charade, i mean they are probably too caught in building their own image too. I need to go back really, and learn what it means to count on God completely, to rely on his strength and not mine, to believe really that his ways are better than mine, his thoughts higher than mine.

On a completely different note, i love it how Jacinth and I were brought together. Its a divine friendship really. I think we were playing bloons defence tower or something? I dont really remember, but suddenly we were just studying together, I for my Os, her for her promos, all over the island really, from Changi Airport, to Amk Macs ( with the stupid, annoying manager), Cafe Galilee, Cafe Cartel, Coffee Bean ( Bishan, museum- Fav! ) , Starbucks( Novena, TTS), Bishan park (!! haha), Ljs, novena macs, all the way to God knows where. But its amazing really, thank God for this girl and her silly passion for soccer, Torres, Liverpool, Farts, Shitting (she loves it really), vanilla lattes, hashbrowns ( in maple syrup), Sims, Michael jackson, Thunder ( today's a winding road, its taken me to places.. ), me and God. And its so good, just studying with her, playing reruns of our playlists, jacking the jack!, eating healthy( or not so) food, cause he's a health freak, and just ..being. You're amazing, i love how you appreciate the smallest things in life, give thanks for the tiny things, see the good in (most) things, do all the saikang for me(including asking for ice for my soursup), tolerate my annoying, not funny, repetitive jokes, dont get sick( at least i think) of seeing me 5 times a week, talk about the weirdest things in the world with me, and i love how you love me. ( i know you do! )
You're a gift from God, and i know our friendship is build on him.
its because of you i really understand now, the enjoyment in shitting.
:)


p/s: Love you Jesus, for being me back to my first love today.
P/p/s: this would enlighten you, this girl's aaaaaaaamazing, Eve.
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anyone out there? [Aug. 4th, 2009|06:30 pm]
Spontaneous decision.
I am going to cut my hair whoohooo, very nervous, excited and feeling ridiculously retarded.
(Oh my god joanna just called, i am going to be late! )
ANYWAYS, yeah i just decided, so a quick phonecall and a " hey do you want to go cut hair" and a "now?" and a yes! did it.
Its been so long since i last did something spontaneous i forgot how it feels.
I'm so tired of thinking and weighing all the pros and cons and whats not.
Remember the last time i cut my hair was 8 months agoooo! the horrendous bangs.
So cross your fingers for me, :)

p/s: SHIT i am quite late. Darn.
P/p/s: i dont feel comfortable on my blog anymore, reassure me? :(
p/p/p/s: i was in an unseasonably bad mood today for the latter part, but i saw this cute Cj guy on the bus! haha stupid things that make your day.
p/p/p/p/s: now joanna is really going to kill me.
p/p/p/p/p/s: but im excited to meet her whoots. :)

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How areyou. [Jul. 29th, 2009|12:11 am]
Another summer day has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome, I wanna go home
Maybe surrounded by a million people I
Still feel all alone, I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two,
“’I’m fine baby how are you?”

Well, I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat and you deserve more than that
Another airplane, another sunny place I’m lucky I know
but I wanna go home, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I gotta come home
Let me go home
I’ve had my run, baby I’m done
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside when everything was going right
And I know just why you could not come along with me
‘Cause this was not your dream, but you always believed in me
Another winter day has come and gone away
In neither Paris nor Rome and I wanna go home
I miss you, you know
 
 
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When you try your best can you don't succeed. [Jul. 21st, 2009|10:05 pm]
The overwhelming feelings of disappointment and failure.
I know it's not justified, and there's no reason why I should feel ths way.
But I do. It's failing your own expectations, your dreams and goals.
Do you know what it feels like?
No you don't.
And you never will.
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who are you? [Jul. 20th, 2009|10:26 pm]
I thought you were better than this. 
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